In an emotional speech at a show in Amsterdam over the weekend, Robbie Williams opened up about his struggle with mental illness and thanked his fans for “protecting” him.
“Over the years, I’ve delved into mental illness and struggled with being human,” Williams said when addressing an audience at Amsterdam’s Ziggodome on Saturday (January 28).
“In 2006, I went through so much that I retired from the industry. was sitting on the couch eating potato chips, chips, donuts, growing a beard, looking like a serial killer, looking for UFOs, I got agoraphobia and didn’t leave the house. I just left home for a doctor’s meeting,” Williams said.
“I had no purpose, no life. At that time I was on top of the world, sold all these stadiums, was in the newspapers every day … My head was like, I don’t deserve this My head says I’m a piece of shit and I’m not worthy,” he continued.
“That’s what my head is telling me. And when you’re on top of the world, everybody’s going to bring you down. They just want to cut you down so you can’t function anymore.
Williams went on to say that he “internalized” “unkind words” written about him that led to his retirement in 2006 and suicidal thoughts. He then says two things kept him “safe” during that time: the first was meeting his wife, American actress Ida Field.
“Another truth is because my brain tells me I’m worthless, I’m a cheater, I shouldn’t be here, I don’t deserve this. Also keep me safe.” What gave me was that you were here and liked me and wanted me to get well,” Williams applauded the crowd.
“Without you, without my wife, without the kids I have today, I wouldn’t be here. So I’m forever grateful to you for protecting me in such a crazy and insane way.” Thank you very much.”
talk NME Last year, Williams spoke about battling mental health issues and substance abuse, and about accepting support from those close to him. I always felt that there was something to save, and I always wanted to be saved.”
“When it comes to delusional about other things, I am, but when it comes to delusional about addiction or my own mental health, I don’t suffer from it.” These people are reaching out to help me, I’m going to grab that hand.’ I know so many people can’t be helped, and I exclude those who come to their rescue. ”
Last year, Williams released ‘XXV’, a collection of re-recorded and orchestrated songs throughout his career, topping the UK Albums Chart and breaking the record previously held by Elvis Presley. He also embarked on a tour of the UK and Ireland, where he performed two special shows of his at the Royal He Albert Hall. better man.
Earlier this month, Williams reiterated his desire to play Glastonbury’s Legends slot, stating that he would “kill it” if given the chance.